October 7th, 2009
|krazy_barista||08:33 am - :D|
mm-hmm thats right
Current Location: work
Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: break room nonsense and breakfast
February 14th, 2009
|doomslippers||07:16 am - Yay!|
Happy Valentine's Day!
To all of my friends here: I love you all, and together we make this a life worth being here for. Thanks, you guys.
February 6th, 2009
January 28th, 2009
|doomslippers||01:23 pm - Sushi Party|
OK! Sushi party it is!
I was thinking of starting around 6pm or so. Bring a filling or two, and we'll roll roll roll! Call me if you need directions to my house: six one six six zero eight seven.
January 26th, 2009
|doomslippers||05:54 pm - Sushi Party|
I totally want to do a sushi rolling party--Yvonne had me all excited. I was thinking either this Friday or next Monday. I was thinking potluck style, as in everyone brings a different filling. What do y'all think?
January 22nd, 2009
|syd___||08:54 am - yes i should have stayed at laura's|
unfortunately less sleep
dreams of bodies, bones and muscles being destroyed
he is unhappy and believes most of it is due to me...
and yes, while the instability in our relationship is my number one stressor and depressor, i would never say that i was unhappy due to him. maybe i should. maybe i should start leaving now. i said i would try. but we will both have to change a lot to make it work. and i don't know if we can. we are such different people, and want such different households and levels of life involvement, yet somehow still want to love each other.
i threw up this morning in the shower, from stress. not sure if i can make it to the job that i have today, or how much good i will be when i get there, driving to crescent city sounds hard right now. wish i hadn't just thrown up all my anti-anxiety tincture.
January 19th, 2009
January 18th, 2009
sometimes i look in a window to another life
and wonder how come
why isn't that me
why aren't i making herb garden spirals
and happy flower posters about compost
and cooking with a crew of folks each night
why with all this time do i accomplish so little. partially because i want to do those things with other people.
yes collective houses can be busy and not give enough personal space.
i want. at least right now. when my home is not so much a sanctuary as an isolation space.
i know i have friends and family and all sorts of folks i could spend time with if i just pick up the phone...
or say yes to invites.
i don't know why that's so much harder.
January 16th, 2009
|doomslippers||08:54 pm - Secret Knitting!|
I just joined this group on Ravelry (you have to be a Ravelry user to see this link. So go sign up! When I joined, the wait was about 4 months. Now it's two days. Srsly, you have no excuse), a test knitting group. I love it! I get to see all these new patterns come through, and I get the fun of helping to produce a pattern without all the hassel of designing it. Now I am working on something very neat, and it is destined to be a free pattern! I'll post photos when I can (which is after the pattern gets published). They are very fun, and I love knitting on them.
Okay, enough gushing about something that I can't really talk about.
Today was my first visit with a doctor, and I am at eight weeks. I saw Dr, Chan, and as I was sitting in the exam room, all akward in my gown, I was passing the time with a quick little sock (self-striping Lion Brand yarn that is now discontinued, but I saw that Generations in Fortuna still has some), she came in and ohhed and ahhed over the sock. Which is normal for people when they see someone knitting somewhere, especially knitting a sock. Socks look so much more badass, with all those needles all over the place. The not so normal happenstance is that we had a lively little conversation about how fun it is to use self-striping yarn for plain old socks, and how much enjoyment we get out of seeing the next color in the sequence! My doctor is a knitter! (Or at least one of my doctors is. Here's hoping that at least two of the other eight are--my money's on the midwives, how's that for stereotyping?)
I am healthy, and my uterus is the correct size and shape. Oh yeah, and my pelvis is the optimal shape for babies.
I have another appointment in about 3 weeks, and Nick and I will be able to hear the heartbeat. Oh, that is such a strange idea, to hear the heart of a person that I am making.
When I was about 17 through, oh, 20, I referred to myself a girl, as opposed to a woman. Even now, the word sounds so strange when I say it about myself. And now I have a small human growing inside me. Hm. Yep.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: the commentary of Star Trek: First Contact